Out of The Closet and into The Open

I had been called gay before I knew what the word even meant. I came out in the summer of 2016, amongst this I lost my remaining friends as a result of fragile masculinity and pure ignorance. I identify as a homosexual male, although I happily accept the female pronouns. I never resented myself for… Read more »

by BenChidley 8 months ago

I had been called gay before I knew what the word even meant. I came out in the summer of 2016, amongst this I lost my remaining friends as a result of fragile masculinity and pure ignorance.

I identify as a homosexual male, although I happily accept the female pronouns. I never resented myself for being gay, I resented the world for its unaccepting nature. I had been the subject of bullying for the whole of my time in secondary school. However, my experience in year 10 caused it to reach an all time high. I had no friends, I sat by myself everyday as the bullying became more prominent, it reached the point where I was pushed down the stairs, spat on and hated by half the school. I am unsure as to whether this was due to my openness towards my sexuality or whether it was my essence of femininity that I portrayed on social media; like YouTube.

There were other gay people in my school however, I was an easy target due to my openness and self-expression. The reason I came out was because I wanted to grow on social media and be a voice for young children exploring their femininity whilst being targeted for it, in order to tell them how freeing it can be to accept yourself whilst showing no attention to the people that will ridicule you for doing so.

It took me many angry years to let the attacks fuel me and motivate me to be my authentic self, which is what I would like people to take away from this article.

Although not everyone understands my femininity and my want to wear female clothes and be flamboyant. The most important people in my life accept me, this is something I am incredibly grateful for. The only person that needs to accept you is you.