Every year I promise myself that I’ll be more focused, or I’ll try something new, I’ll give up bad habits, or I’ll complete a task which I’ve just never got around to. But after the hellish year I’ve had for 2019 my 2020 NY’s resolution is going to be much different.
Being healthy. But not in the eating better or being more active way. I want to be healthy within my mind, I want to dedicate some serious time to really focusing on my own wellbeing. Life pressures, health stressors, and all the rest have really taken their toll on me last year, and it’s about time I took action to do things that benefit my wellbeing.
I want to focus on looking after others, it’s what I do best. But with a balance of being able to look after myself. To accept when my health holds me back, to learn how to cope with the effects that can have on me mentally, and to learn to be disciplined with accepting my limitations. It’s not like I cannot look after myself, it’s that when my health prevents me looking after others I start to struggle, which in turn affects my competence in looking after myself. All my focus disappears, and I become somewhat disjointed with accepting that it isn’t my fault, that I am strong, and that I am still looking after others.
To use the NY’s resolution as an excuse to do this is naughty, but this way I feel that I have an excuse to start focusing on myself and to really take some sort of precedence over my illness and have more control on how it affects my wellbeing.
Roll-on 2020, and I do hope with a positive mindset and an eager will I will be better prepared to face things, and have a much more enjoyable year than I did with 2019!