Yo. Firstly, let’s just take a little step back and see what’s occurring right now. Okay so your mental health is pretty poor, and your living situation isn’t the most ideal. That’s okay, and do you know why it’s okay?
Because you are surrounded by family who absolutely adore and cherish you. Yes, you are going through a really tough time right now, and a lot of it seems super scary, but you will pull through.
Instead of ruminating on the negative emotions that constantly course through your body, try and distract yourself with playing more Xbox, watch Harry Potter more (you actually only ever learn all the words to the first three films, which is impressive, but all seven films would be more impressive), take more walks in the forest (which is literally on your doorstep!).
I know motivation is so difficult to conjure up at the moment too, but I guarantee that you will start feeling better if you can just get yourself up and doing something.
That Need for Speed game you fancy yourself being good at, get more points and instead of getting silver on every race track and crash set, go for gold! Challenge yourself, I know that would certainly keep you busy.
Although you live far away from where most of your friends are it’s probably better for you, yeah that’s probably hard to hear, but realistically you need to focus on your recovery rather than your friendships and the upkeep of being cool for smoking weed. That’s another naggy factor, I can tell you now that 100% stopping that will improve your mental health (trust me, I’ve seen you transform!).
The medication you’re on is causing you to pile on weight, which I think everyone can see is having implications on your mental health. Instead of ignoring it and feeling like you have no choice, talk to your responsible clinician and tell them how you are feeling – that’s what they’re there for and they should take on board your opinions about your treatment.
Whatever you do, don’t stop being you. Your personality is something that people have complimented you on in the past and future and that’s something you should be proud of and hold on to. You get through all this, and you come out the other end so much stronger. There was once a quote I read which stated:
‘I want you to be happy, said life. But first I’m going to make you strong’.