Did you know that we all have mental health? Well I know I didn’t when I first found out and it affects everyone differently. I started to struggle when I moved up to high school. I remember that in the summer holidays I just got hit with the feeling of not having any control over what comes next. That was 4 years ago but I still get that feeling every day.
My mental health stops me from completing small tasks that most people do automatically, from talking to friends to paying for things at shops.
Some days I just wish more than anything that I could curl up in a ball and hide from the world, but I know I can’t. Sometimes I feel like I’m in the room but I’m looking from the outside in. People say “just snap out of it” but that’s so hard to do when it’s like there’s a brick wall in your head that started with one little piece but just keeps growing.
I have busy weeks with GCSE work and clubs. I never get time to relax and recharge my battery. Some days I feel like the world is crumbling all around me and I have nothing to turn to. However, the last year or so I’ve been finding small ways to get out of that cycle. Something I’ve relied on more than I ever thought in the past is music. It’s been such a big part for me because when I pick up my hand me down guitar and strum its strings, I get teleported away from everything and everyone that’s swirling around in my head like a whirlpool. I’ve found meeting up with friends that know about how I’m feeling is amazing because then I don’t have to pretend I’m all okay when I’m not.
If you’re someone reading this and you don’t know how to cope with everyday life I have one piece of advice that someone I care deeply about gave to me. Little steps make the biggest difference. So don’t push yourself to try to find the things that work for you because they will come naturally when you need them the most. I wish you all the best and remember don’t ever give up fighting for your heart.